The Day I Wasn’t Expecting

Tomorrow is a very big day. And more than likely, some tears will be shed. Fortunately, they will be happy tears…. For the most part.
It is one of the days that I was not expecting to have this year. I was not expecting to have my first Mother’s Day with a living child. I was not expecting to be able to participate in parent dedication at our church.
When we first found out we were pregnant, we were really excited when the preschool director at our church gave us the envelope of information about parent dedication. We were so excited to be able to dedicate to living our lives in a way to teach our future child about the Lord. Then that day in October came that shattered our hopes and dreams. We put that envelope with information in a place where we wouldn’t be able to see it to remind us that it wouldn’t be happening this time around. We completely took that off of our radar.
It wasn’t until about a month ago or so when they reminded the church about signing up for parent dedication that we realized, “Hey! We can do that!!!” I am so beyond thrilled that we even get the chance to do this. I wish there were words to even explain how joyful and grateful that I am to be able to participate this time around. I am so blessed that God has given us this much time with Annalise to where we are able to do this. “Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise…” (Psalm 145:3)!
Then on top of the amazing experience of being able to participate in parent dedication, it’s Mother’s Day! It’s like a 2-for-1 special for us!
If you would have asked me back in October through mid-February how I was going to handle Mother’s Day without my child here with me, I don’t know how I would have responded. I wasn’t even thinking about that back then because I was just so focused on how to handle the grief and loss that we would have to experience. I didn’t want to think about those types of days when happy things were supposed to be taking place.
So this Mother’s Day- I’m sure I will shed some tears. Mainly because I feel so incredibly blessed and grateful to have Annalise here with me on this day. But also because, even though I have not experienced the pain of losing my child yet, I have gone through the process of thinking I would.
So… my heart goes out to all the women who have lost a child- whether it was early in the pregnancy, later on, or sometime after birth. Those children are not forgotten. You, as a mother, are not forgotten. I so admire these women. I can only hope that when the day comes for me to be apart of this amazing group of women that I can prove that God is faithful through it all… that He is so, so good and that He is worthy to be praised. I pray that He is glorified through everything.
My heart also goes out to the women who don’t have children or who are incapable of having their own. I pray that you find strength through this hard day and remember that you are so loved and so valuable. There is always a place and a future for you. Thank you for being some of the strongest women I know and reminding me that God’s plan for our lives is the best plan and that He is in complete control. There is always hope.
My heart is so happy for the women who do get to experience this day with their children though. You are more blessed than you probably realize. It’s so easy to take things for granted when you are surrounded by the love of your children everyday… but I encourage you to just take the time tomorrow to pray for those people who can’t or won’t be able to spend the day with loved ones. Even for all the people who don’t get to spend Mother’s Day with their own mothers.
Because tomorrow is more focused on parent dedication for us, Kev decided that today was the day we, as a family of 3, would celebrate Mother’s Day. So after taking my “morning nap”, I woke up with this site right next to me:
She even signed the card for me! 😜
 
The ring is perfect.
   

Our 3 birthstones, with hers in the middle, will always be a constant reminder that she has brought Kev and I together in a way we never thought would happen. Through our journey with her, we have learned so much about love, joy, peace, faithfulness, hope, perseverance, the sovereignty of God, and so on. We never thought we would be put on a journey like this together but she has made our world a much better place. ☺️ She’s a constant reminder that when we put our hope in the Lord, when we cast our cares on Him… His plan is always perfect and He is always in control.
It’s funny how God works sometimes. For the last several days, I have been singing a song to Annalise that I have not heard since I was a little girl. (I sing to her when she is falling asleep and for some reason, this little tune has been helping calm her down and putting her to sleep faster.)
It goes like this:
“Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary; Pure and holy, tried and true. With thanksgiving, I’ll be a living sanctuary for You.”
What a reminder!!!
Our purpose in life is to live each day giving Him the glory and honor that is due. No matter what may come our way, no matter the circumstance, no matter the trials we face… We should be giving Him the praise and worshipping Him.
We should be saying- “Lord, prepare my life to be a sacred and holy place of worship. Help me to give thanks in all circumstances so that I may bring You glory.” 
I pray that everyone reading this has a blessed weekend, whatever your situation may be.
Now that I have made you read the heavy stuff that was laid on my heart first, we can get to the part that everybody loves: 😉😜
Updated pictures of our little celebrity. (I can officially call her that now that she has been on the local news! 😉)
Anyways… as of May 8th, Annalise now weighs 9lbs 9oz. She is getting even more sassier and even more vocal. (We love it!!!) Like I always say… We are so incredibly blessed.
And now the time is here! Enjoy!
Have a blessed weekend!

—anchoring our hope to the one who has already scripted the perfect ending—

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27 comments

  1. Kerrie Marquart · May 9, 2015

    So beautiful, what a little dolly!  God bless you and your sweet family.  Your ring is beautiful and so special.  Happy Mommy’s day!  

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  2. Beth · May 9, 2015

    How exciting for you to celebrate Mother’s Day with your sweet baby! What a day of celebration!
    Thank you so much for recognizing those who have lost children and those who are unable to bear children. I am a 53 year old infertile woman and adoptive mom of 2 precious teens. I thank the Lord every day that He has seen fit for me to be their mama. I am also very very grateful for both of my children’s birthmoms, who sacrificed to give life to their babies.
    Enjoy your special day!

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  3. Kassy Paris · May 9, 2015

    Happy Mother’s Day!

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  4. Ellen Wycuff · May 9, 2015

    Happy first Mother’s Day! I hope you get many more with this precious little Angel

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  5. Angie · May 9, 2015

    Thank you so much for sharing with us. I so look forward to updates! She is such a beautiful little sweet girl…Happy Mothers Day!!!

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  6. Laura Nickel · May 9, 2015

    Annalise certainly has sweet expressions—-as she IS ! Thanks Pragels !!

    Date: Sat, 9 May 2015 21:32:30 +0000
    To: lauralnickel@hotmail.com

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  7. Shauna · May 9, 2015

    She is awesome so strong, so sweet. Congrats on a very happy mother’s day.

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  8. Rebecca NIchols · May 9, 2015

    Candy, Annalise is so beautiful, She is so lucky to have parents like you and Kevin whose relationship with the Lord is so strong and alive. I love you all! Happy mothers day my dear friend!

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  9. Connie Hurla · May 10, 2015

    What a beautiful little angel! Thank you for sharing her story…she is a true blessing!

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  10. Donna Fry Reimer · May 10, 2015

    What an angel God has blessed you with. Your devotion and love in writing and spirit is a wonderful testimony to us. May we all take a lesson from the three of you . May God bless and keep you in his loving arms as you make this journey together. Thank You for sharing with us.

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  11. Amber · May 10, 2015

    Thanks again for sharing your miracle with us! My kids LOVE seeing new pics. They always say ahhh she is so cute! That she is! Happy Mother’s Day!

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  12. Jean · May 10, 2015

    Candy – Thank you so much for the reminder to never take a single moment with our kids for granted. I am so so so happy that you will be able to have your first (second?) mother’s day with Annalise present. God bless your family!

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  13. Judy Lykins · May 10, 2015

    Happy Mothers Day to a very special mommy! Thank you for sharing sweet Annalise with us, she is the best! She has a special place in all of our hearts? I love har facial expressions & those beautiful eyes!

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  14. rhondasdoings · May 10, 2015

    she is so precious! I rejoice with you ! Happy 1st Mother’s Day! enjoy every single moment.

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  15. Ruth Quiring · May 10, 2015

    Wishing you a wonderful Mother’s Day!!Thinking of you with tears of joy. You are a blessing.

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  16. anonda risse · May 10, 2015

    Happy Mother’s day! I just love seeing her. Especially her rocking her sports gear.

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  17. Catherine · May 10, 2015

    Wish I had your faith, wish I could believe in God but I’m glad you find peace and have your faith to help you through. I am amazed at how well your all doing and so happy you have this special day together. But you know every day is special. Xxxx

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  18. Kathy · May 10, 2015

    She is a precious gift from our loving and gracious GOD! Thank you for giving HIM all the glory and praise for every moment of your lives. Love, love, love all the beautiful photos!! Happy Mother’s Day!

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  19. Bonnie Traher · May 11, 2015

    Such blessings. God bless you and your family.

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  20. Pat Dyer · May 11, 2015

    Thank you so much for sharing your precious moments with us. Annalise has become a special part of all the lives of those of us who read this and see your wonderful tiny Miracle Girl. God bless.

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  21. Lisa Littlefield · May 11, 2015

    She is so precious. Happy mothers day to you yesterday. My grandson is always asking me how she is doing. He thinks she is the cutest baby. God bless you all.

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  22. Kathleen Greffin Popp · May 12, 2015

    Happy Mommys Day! Your little Angel is precious! God bless Annalise & your family!

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  23. wonderofsomethingcurvy · May 12, 2015

    Happy belated mother’s day! What news where you guys in? I’d love to watch a clip of it! 🙂

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  24. Rebecca · May 13, 2015

    What a precious mother’s day! Praying for more to come!

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  25. Hannah J. · May 14, 2015

    What a beautiful post! Your little girl is SO cute and I’ve been blessed to read the inspiring story you have shared with the world. I found out about your family a few weeks ago and I have enjoyed reading through some of your archives. 🙂 I hope you had a great Mother’s Day! -Hannah

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  26. sarahontheverge · May 22, 2015

    She is so beautiful.

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  27. sue · June 1, 2015

    I don’t know you at all, but have been so inspired by reading your words and enjoying so many pictures of Annalise. Her eyes are amazing! God Bless you, Kev and Annalise.

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